Day like any other...
It may have been a day like any other, it might have been, everything in my being wished it to be so, if only...
"If only" now there's the crux... the lock, stock and barrel of it! But this day was nothing special, if you do beyond yourself, you will find only one thing, insignificance, a life of indifference. Indifference is death, I knew it, I trusted you, I shouldn't have, it was my mistake, you were indifferent. I stood outside, the man in the darkness... he had always been my friend, yet you... my playful thief, you... I choose you... how wrong I was, how could I not have seen? I was the light he sought. I abandoned him.
I sat in the field, the stars in the sky, the light in the dark, like him, light I hadn't seen. What was I talking about, a dream? a life? a reality? The tea was delicate... I had been here before, was it yesterday? No... only a few moments had passed but time had slowed, no, time was travelling backwards I watched the clock tick back, there was a word on my lips. The whispers were all around me... stronger... "Stop" Everything stood still. And then he was here, my dark man, his blue eyes... Two things... Sohnen... they were Sohnen... but who was he? he reached for me, his arms outstretched... "Should I know who you are?" Where was my voice coming from, my body was frozen in place... he smiled and kissed my cheek "Soon" but not today. He hurried me into a corridor...
Then it was quiet... Too quiet, it seemed as if the station had been silenced by the horrors it had witnessed, the ventilation system seemed to whisper silent prayers from every ventilation shaft. My boots clanked harshly against the metallic deck plating built to withstand heavy lifting machinery and its inevitable cargoes. It was then that I saw him, it was for the briefest of moments, little more than a shadow in my mind, but enough for me to register his existence, stepping out from a corridor and then just as quickly he was gone. I called a guard to my side, knowing that the soldier was so close at hand was comforting, but feeling can be deceptive, whatever had killed the crew had massacred some ten thousand soldiers stationed here without leaving even a trace of it's existence. What could have done this? What monstrosity could commit such a barbarous act? And more importantly who would unleash such a thing? I held on tightly to him and closed my eyes, it was hard to believe that I was to live and work here, among where the corpses now lay...
Was I dreaming or was I awake?!? As we trekked towards the habitation deck, the sheer graphic scale of what had happened here made me feel numb, everywhere I looked bodies or worse body parts littered the corridors and intersections, brutal and unnatural deaths... bodies ripped apart as if by some wild animal, broken and battered like some macabre plaything.
But then the station was buzzing with life again, smiles... life. I felt his fingers run through my hair... he was whispering...
I awoke... I reached up feeling the cold hard headboard, I was home... In my apartment... The whispers were asking me to be calm... Voices? Voice??? Was he the man of my dreams? Perhaps a metaphor??? He was something more to me? What was I saying! I glanced at my pdd... I had a message from Dr. Shuune saying that she couldn't get in touch with me, and to reschedule my appointment as soon as possible... I looked out of the window on to Urban Tower 72... it was the same... in five minutes it would start raining... I remember that it was raining before I left for Tokia-City... Should I go? I haven't been told to go yet? What had happened?
As I walked through the huge entrance halls of Tokia... There was no soldiers waiting for me... I'd come to the station but I was out of sync with events... suddenly I heard a voice. "Miss Xique?" I turned and there he stood, but in a blink he was gone as quickly as he had arrived. My dreams were invading my conscious thought, I needed help.
"Miss Xique, it seems you've suffered" he breathed deep "Terrible scaring throughout your brain especially throughout the neural pathways. This is professional work, it's as if someone's gone in and... and you say you have no knowledge of this?" "None at all" "None what to ever" his eye brows meeting as he squinted at me, "This is very serious, it seems you've been experimented on by... By" his voice suddenly filling with authority "By some rogue surgeon" the young doctor's emotion was touching, it was as if he had suddenly discovered the reason he'd been through medical school, but there was nothing he could do, "I'm sorry but I'm afraid the damage is irreparable" "Oh that's ok" I tried not to sound too pleased, why was I pleased I wonder??? The feeling had come over me in a wave quite unexpectedly. As I walked back out onto the main concourse I saw the him, he sat looking at me drinking coffee, he beckoned me over.
We must have sat there for five minutes just smiling at each other before he spoke "Did you find what you were looking for?" I just sat there and smiled "I bet you did" I take back what I said before... I would exchange today for another day, I was finally waking up... I didn't know what that meant yet but now he was with me it was only a matter of time. I saw the shadows run, time was moving before us, I'd not seen it in this way before. He handed me the coffee "You should drink something", the liquid was cold, more so than I had expected... it chilled me, I felt the wind on me... he looked up at the ceiling "we should go".
I felt it to, it was time to leave we boarded the shuttle and headed for the surface, something was happening to time... They were not all dreams... They were real, something had happened to me and I was in my dreams, but they were real dreams, lives yet unlived, did I decide not to live that reality? Or had he.
Now we were back in my apartment, considering all that had happened, it was strange that we would end up back here, as if this had been some kind of date, but it was time to sleep.
I sat in my field... looking up at the stars, he sat beside me while I slept, a comforting sleep. I awoke the soft cushions of my bed against my shoulders, the harsh coldness of the metal in my hands. Time had passed... it was tomorrow... I looked out of the window and saw him waving from the gardens below. I rushed breathlessly down the stairs until I ran into the light... The garden was bright, the morning dew thick in the air, "Did you sleep well?" I nodded, then suddenly realising I'd not spoken to him yet! "Who are you?" "Ah the eternal question, and a good one I might add! It is so easy to dismiss but could it be said anyone truly knows who they are?" He brushed some corn from my hair, I knew that is what is was before I even looked down. Now this was either an elaborate seduction hoax, or I was going insane, or I was madly in love, or... Oh I don't know!!! But this is more than fate, much more, but in what way? Wait he didn't answer my question. but before I could speak he placed his fingers over my lips "I am here because you reached out for me because you see... and that is something special... And because it is the journey that binds us" "Journey?" but then he was gone... then I realised I was standing naked in the middle of a city garden at 4am in the morning.
Day like any other... (FFA Part 2)
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